Last year, I visited one of my relatives
who had had a bit of a nasty accident, but to be honest it could have been a
lot, LOT worse. Like dangerously bad. Whenever I think about it, it reminds me how precious
and precarious life is.
Without getting too morbid, I have a crazy fear of death.
Like I can’t even think about it. Trying to comprehend the fact that one day
you will fall asleep but the rest of the world will continue – oh god no, I’ll
have to stop – too weird. But whatever you feel about life or death or what
will happen, we must all agree that life is pretty precious – right? We need to
take care of it. Of ourselves. Of each other.
I often think about my direction and what is happening in my
life right now and whether I am really living
life to the max. Probably not – that’s sad. Although I travel and learn and
experience things and have lots of friends and see my family all the time,
there’s probably loads of stuff I could be doing to push myself a little bit
further into the realm of the unknown. Sometimes I think “Sod this, let’s take
a career break, pack up our lives and blow all our savings on a year of
travelling the world!” But then what? No savings, behind on the career ladder,
no house – materialistic I know but life can’t just stop for a whim – can it?
I want to see and experience EVERYTHING. Everything I
possibly can. People, places, sounds, smells, perhaps not tastes, but I feel
fortunate enough to be able to experience these things and have to resources to
do it. I have a problem I know. I am WAY too eager to experience it all and
when something is in my head it’s very hard to let it go and I want to do it now. It drives other people insane. But
this is getting slightly off topic….
Life is precious and precarious. Anything can happen and I
want to be secure in the knowledge that I took every opportunity available to
me. Whether that’s at work, socially, or in my personal life. But I suppose
things only become available with time. I want to see the world – I need to
save up to travel. I wanted to get a good degree – I needed
to spend time studying and learning. I want good, strong, solid friendships – I
need to spend time with people and really listen. You can go out and make
opportunities or let them come to you. They have to be reasonable. If we all
just went out and experienced EVERYTHING we would never get anything done!
So shall we make a pact? A pact to do stuff. Everyday.
Something good. Something fun. Because if life is precious (which it is – we’ve
established), we must be all pretty special too. Like little diamonds. Let’s not
let life pass us by, let’s run after it and grab it by the horns.
Speak soon,
L xx
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